This Is The Way We Paint The Walls.....

Good morning! Not sure if you were able to catch on to the title but it is running through my head like that little nurssery rhyme, "this is the way we go to school, go to school, go to school......" and also that today we are going to ATTEMPT to paint Bri's room! She has been asking for quite some time to have her room painted pink and green (I know, I know, but just go with me on this one! I promise it will look better than it sounds and will figure out how to post pictures of the finished product!). She so eloquently reminded me the other day that she has been asking for several years now and it has been put off and put off until now she only has ONE MORE YEAR to enjoy it! :( :) (sad for me, happy for her maybe?!) I just wanted to bawl my eyes out because she just had to remind me of the big elephant that looms in the room at all times but is most of the time successfully avoided, that she will be going away to college in a little over a year but also that I had procrastinated on yet another thing that was important to her. I am so sorry Bri! Until I finally admitted to myself that I needed to make some major changes in my life, I never realized how much I had let you and Bub down! Can't go backwards, MUST go forward! I am working on doing better!

So, as soon as I get done "talking" to y'all, I am going to go wake that little sleepy head up, and off to Lowe's we go! Jeff had won a gift card for Lowe's in a little competition thing they had going at work and we were going to save it for a new lawn mower but sometimes we just HAVE to have priorities and my baby girl is a MAJOR priority! We will just get a used one if we have to this year and next year (oh, no, let's don't talk about that again!!) or maybe even at the end of the season when they are crazily marked down we can get one then. Like I said, priorities, priorities!!

We had a WONDERFUL visit yesterday with the family! Thank you Aunt Lou (Brenda :)) for lunch! It was a totally unexpected but MUCH appreciated surprise! We love you! It is so difficult for me to see all of us changing as we get older. I know that it is an inevitable part of life but still so difficult to watch. I am so thankful that my parents instilled in me a love and respect for my "elders". They have so much that we can learn from them and they need to know that we love and care for them always!

It was a day full of many emotions. We laughed and cried. After we visited with everyone at Brenda's we went over to Uncle Bill's. Bill & Lyla live in the house that my parents owned many years ago. We were driving down the road and Jackie said "they're not home yet" and I was thinking to myself "how does she know that because we're not even there yet", when she flipped on the turn signal and I realized that we were at their driveway. I didn't even recognize it. It had changed so drasticly. The fields that once surrounded Aunt Lou & Uncle Jesse's house, the house and the old rickity barn were all gone. Replaced by commercial real estate. Commercial real estate upon our many wonderful memories. Sad. So sad. Just another proof that life goes on around us.

I miss those days. Those days of carefree living, loving & family. Those days when there wasn't so much ugliness in the world. People had compassion and respect for others. We can get it back. It will just take a committment to God and to ourselves that we deserve, we desire and we want to be better. kinder and loving people! I am striving to begin the change inside of me!

Well, there is a paint brush & beautiful pink and green paint that are calling my name! I pray you all have a WONDERFUL day!

Until tomorrow,
Beth

Been Away Too Long.....

Good morning! I'm back! I just realized today that I haven't "talked" to you all since Friday! Things have been kind of crazy around here. My Aunt Doris and Cousin Jeremy came in from out of town on Sunday and I had neglected cleaning (I mean really cleaning!) my house for a while so, as you can imagine, I had to put in several hours taking care of things that I should have been doing all along! Oh, well, can't change it can I? So, I must move on!

I am glad they are here visiting with us! My sister, Jackie is in town also and so today we are all going to see my Aunt Lou. I am ashamed to say that she lives right here in the same state with me but yet it seems the only time I get to see her is when we all go to KENTUCKY for the family reunion! I put caps on Kentucky to draw emphasis to it, yeah, that's pretty pathetic isn't it? We live in INDIANA but yet I only see her when we all go to KENTUCKY! Why is it that it is so easy to procrastinate? Why is it that it is so easy to make "empty" promises. "I promise I will bring Mom and Dad over to see you" and then it never seems to happen. I regret that.

One of the things that life has taught me is that life is not guaranteed. It is time that I start living every day. Do the things that I have put off. Say what I mean and mean what I say. Forgive. Love. Hope. Faith. Peace. I have so much to learn.......

Well, I must sign off for today because my "drill sergant" (Jackie :)) has given me a time limit and well, we all know me, I am running out of time!!!!

I hope you all have a WONDERFUL day!

Until tomorrow,
Beth