Reflections In The Mirror....

Good morning! I apologize that my last few posts were more on the "downer" side of things and I appreciate you hanging in there with me and supporting me! After running across a few "speedbumps" in the journey of my life it is time to get off the curb and back in the flow of traffic!

I think part of the problem has been that I have been having extraordinary pain issues over the past several days and after so many days of feeling this unbearable pain it finally begins to wear on you. But I have hope that comes in the form of an appointment with a top notch Neurologist in April. I scheduled this appointment in January! I hope that means that she is REALLY GOOD!

What am I doing at this moment you might ask??!! Well, besides "talking" to you I am listening to the GREATEST CHRISTIAN ROCK BAND in the world! Yep, that's right, Mesynger! I'm listening to their "debut" cd. Rusty, what's a girl got to do to get your booty in gear and get that NEW cd out to your #1 fan???? Not that I don't absolutely love ALL of your stuff but you have some pretty AWESOME new stuff too! I thought I had "connections"???!!! :)

Had a little bit of a scare yesterday with my sister, Jackie. She had a liver biopsy last week and was experiencing some complications from the procedure. After doing a CT scan they determined they could send her home with medication for the pain. You scared me girl, I wanted so desperately to be there with you! I'm praying you are much better today!

Mom and Dad seem to be doing ok. They never really complain. They are my inspiration! They have led by example and I only hope and pray that I have done the same with my own children. They are the true definition of loving parents. They have sacrificed ALWAYS for each other and their children. What a blessing to be their child!

I cannot talk about my family without thinking about my sister, Mel. Mel, I know you don't read this but I just couldn't leave you out, ever. I love you. I don't understand what has happened and everyday I grieve for you. I pray that God will fix this and that you and I can find our way back to each other. Always remember that I love you, no matter what, no matter the distance, I miss you and the hole in my heart seems to get bigger everyday! Life is too short. If anything were to happen I'm glad that I am able to put it in writing so that you can see it one day and KNOW beyond a shadow of a doubt, these are my words, believe them, I LOVE YOU, ALWAYS AND FOREVER!

Jeff, Bri and Taylor are doing well too. Jeff is hoping to sell a house or two this week! God knows he could sure use it but all in His timing! Bri is keeping up with an exhausting schedule right now with softball. She has some form of softball practice every day sometimes two times a day. This is the time of year that you can literally almost everyday see her changing right before your eyes! Taylor is doing so well on his home schooling! I have to admit that I was worried that it would be a challenge to be disciplined everyday but he has not complained one time and works diligently each day to accomplish what he needs to accomplish!

All in all, as you can see, I have SO MUCH to be thankful and SO MUCH to put a smile on my face! Doubt, fear, pain, anxiety may have won this battle but it WILL NOT win the war! I am a fighter! I am a warrior! I can do ALL THINGS through Christ Who strengthens me!

Finally, I will leave you with a simple poem that reflects why I chose today's title:

Reflection In The Mirror
By Beth Forey

I look in the mirror
And what do I see?
The eyes of my soul
Looking back at me.

Take a look closer
Do not be afraid.
Do not hang your head
Your feelings evade.

You are the one
No one else can be.
There is no one else
That can ever be me.

I am a fighter
A warrior of sorts.
A survivor of life
Even if at times I fall short.

So I look in the mirror
And the reflection I see
Although flawed and scarred
I am beautiful to me!

Until tomorrow,
Beth